9/1/2011

5:42pm

And so the journey within a journey within a journey continues...

The sun sets early here so I'll make the most of the light.

We had to check-out at noon today, so we had several hours to kill before the bus trip back to San Jose. There was a relatively cheap internet cafe, so I spent an hour there, replying to emails and checking notifications, writing to all the people I miss so much. In a way I think it makes the homesickness worse. Not that I feel miserable and can't wait to go home, but I've just found I'm usually too busy to think about home or miss it too much. So when I log on and get all these reminders, I'm over the moon to hear from them (well, from him in particular), but at the same time it's almost painful.

I fell asleep last night thinking of him, remembering those nights I spent in his arms. I know that it's something amazing to look forward to when I get home, but right now I guess I really want it... right now. Perhaps the few little kisses last night brought flooding back memories of the guy I actually wish it was with.

But this whole weekend I've felt a little guilty. As fun as this holiday has been so far, I want to get out there and start working, and help make a difference somewhere. It helps to keep telling myself that my minor pain is going to be someone else's incredible gain.

Sunlight has all but gone now, so I'll have to end my rambling here.